Uncensored Reminiscences

have been too much concerntrated on work and poker... :p

time to plug back in the real matrix now.  :)

今儿看到说：市场就是一面镜子。觉得特有道理。把市场抽象是一个复杂系统的人，追求的是理性；把市场看作是充满机遇的人，拥有的是野心；认为市场中处处是陷阱的人缺乏安全感，追求市场中的运气的人（比如我）单纯和天真~~ 市场如此复杂，你在其中可以看到任何你想看到的东西（咋这么像哈里波特里面的那个魔镜呢~~） 那个《哥本哈格》也是，整个故事充满不确定性，你相信那个理论，其实也体现了你的性格、特点。

不喜欢镜子的人是在逃避自己，过于依赖镜子也会沉迷于肤浅。
Reflect what you are, in case you dont know

Ill be your mirror

 

今天终于去了久仰的天与地吃饭~ 没想到里面的环境竟如此优雅、精致且暧昧，简直是和绝世美与没有品位的女吃饭的完美场所。  小便池上大大的像框里裱着三十年代女学生的单独和集体照片……

well, first of all, i don't hate new york. after all it is one of those metropolitans. no one can really hate it. but from a general point of view, the city is simply not like-able. Having been there quite a few times at an early stage of my life, i feel a strong social responsibility to let other friends and fellows be aware of the potential dangers hidden in the city.
The weather. It is very hot in the summer and extremely cold during the  winter. And it rains and snows a lot as well. That's also why San Fran is my favorite city as it is always like the spring there.
The layout of the city is designed very well in the mid manhhattan which was clearly divided by streets and avenues. But out of that, roads become very irregular and so difficult to track. So i was very reluctant to go below Houston street.
Another reason i always stayed in the mid area is for personal safety. Not to mention areas outside Manhhattan, just above 100th street within in the island, it is already occupied by black people. By the way, i am saying this without any prejudgement as i totally look down upon those racists. Just based on scientific statistics, African Americans have a very high ratio in all kinds of low level criminals. So for safety reason, i suggest people not leave the central area of New York if possible.
You should also be aware of other areas such as the east and west villages where are full of homosexuals and drug users. Whenever you go there, you will find people of same sex holding hands, hugging or kissing shamelessly, and youth, wearing absurb hairs and tons of mental on their faces, shake their heads like crazily apparently due to the use of the most dangerous drug called ecstacy.
My favorite place in New York is definitely central park which is like the God saved heaven out of the hell. I really enjoyed those time that i read my favorite Harry Potter at the lake side. But even the peace of the park is challenged by evils from outside. Ladies and guys lie down nakedly on the great lawn for so called "sun bathing", which is totoally unacceptable with any social responsibility standards.
New yorkers are generally rude and mean. I still remember it vividly, Once i stopped a gentleman for a direction query. While i was considering which way would be the most proper and polite way to ask, he yelled to me unpatiently:"yo, what do u want?" You could imagine how scary and agressive he was.

Actually the list could go on and on. And actually i haven't mentioned the subway where you could find every single piece of garbage in the world, Brooklyn or lower east side where houses are covered by dirty graffities and bars are packed with corrupted "new generation", and even so call mordan art museums where are dominated by werid stuff which doesn't make any sense.

So for those claiming "I love New York", i suggest them explore more of the world in a more sophisticated way. Go and enjoy the classic London, Romantic Paris, Clean and Safe Singapore, and good and nice San Francisco~ Appreciate life and be away of New York~

 

/// purely personal views, so don't take it personal.

MSN挂了两个多月了，自从上次写好blog准备upload的时候。。。终于又上来了，准备再也不下了~

不过上次写的blog已经找不到了，回顾一下，好想写了关于trend的玩意儿：总结来说trend就和鲁迅说的路一样，都是一群trend leader闯出来，剩下的大部分人都是trend follower。不要说什么品味、时尚或者艺术，在某种程度下只有创新的和过时的。继续引用盖茨比：there are only the pursued, pursuing, the busy, and the tired. 看了《故乡》的最后一段，第一次感到一种心酸。Jeff 说过：“我觉得每个中国人都得看鲁迅，丫就是一个老朋克！”

6点半睡醒，又想起了盖茨比：A poor son of bitch，却是一个对梦想如此认真的人，图书馆里整齐地摆满了未开封的真书。Jazz Age，人们放纵、堕落、沉浸于奢华的繁荣，自一战的结束而开始，于股灾和大萧条而结束。
至今已快30年了，在物质和娱乐变得丰富繁荣的过程中，全民追逐着每一个新鲜事物，它们的吸引力也注定短暂，比如曾经的超级女声。现在全民又嚷嚷着崛起，似乎风水轮流转，这已经是注定的事了。须不知这背后一步步积累的顽疾何时会发作。
号称小学生已经开始拿压岁钱炒股了，估计我们还可以笑到奥运之前。

两点半午饭后，似乎宣布春天到了，气温从昨天涨了10度，除了上班和吃饭以外很久没在白天出门的我，突然有了逛街的心情。于是遛到地铁，打算去曼哈顿东村儿瞻仰一下圣.马克街。
不想却从联合广场出了站，那边正是周末的food market，贩卖着大都来自长岛的蔬菜、水果、cookie、dim sum、花卉、奶酪…… 看见NY Film Academy，走进去竟然问我是不是学生，让我登记，然后去二楼。好吧，我就径直上了三层，墙壁上画了n多导演和经典电影（好多金刚啊）和无数电影海报，还有学生在大骂，不知是演员还是导演。
穿过广场，两个帅哥在长凳上亲嘴儿，想起某人的经典语录：“我不是不敢当Gay，只是不想当罢了~”。这个广场永远充满活力，Dog Run里大狗小狗咬来咬去，台阶上下到处都是滑板，扶手已经被毁得不成样子了。
不知不觉又走到Virgin Store，全是10块钱的打折货，让不让你活了！交钱排队时，竟然看见觊觎已久的英国传奇乐队Spinal Tap的经典纪录片，真是卖不了不如卖得巧啊~
在Strand买了两年前夏天看到的小电影海报书，困~ 走那个可以推着转的立方体旁边的星巴克吃水果、喝咖啡，继续昏昏沉沉地看情僧录，只是自从秦姐姐淫丧天香楼以后兴趣已经减了大半。
华盛顿广场那家Tower Records已经倒闭了，倒霉的是对面的other music还开着。发誓一个月以内再也不去任何music/dvd商店，除非为了去拿免费的village voice。
穿过关闭了的喷泉，拐了个弯，径直走到IFC Center，旁边那个久违的地铁站，沿着熟得不能再熟的路，搭着A车回到了家~
恩，一片比较满意的流水帐。
对了，再piss off Jeff 一下，昨天听了Cecil Taylor，却总让我想起俞伯伯的高山流水……（一定要用省略号结尾！）

"Music is just like sex," they are both primitive impulses. you can’t really describe them, but only experience them and feel them. you have to be constantly creative to be good at them. they may both have the intro, foreplay, upsurge, orgasm, repeat and multiple orgasm, and a snap or gradual ending. you would enjoy it only with yourself, or share with others. it could be as soft as with lips, as wild as jazz, as serious as symphony, or just anally heavy hardcore. you would play with all the instruments you have to make a harmonic effect or madly smashing them together noisily. you care about the rhythms and timings of up and down, in and out. you may go all over the place or just focus on one spot. the truth might be after a great gig, you feel that you have lived even exhausted.

"And lyrics is you know more about the person."

 

时差完全颠倒，下午喝了整整一杯咖啡，恶心到现在，发泄一下。

ms大家都在写滑雪。我也写。

基本上总体来说呢，本周末不宜出行：

订了网上的ski package，周六早晨7点发车，提前15分钟到。6点起床，上班都没起这么早，下了电梯发现没有带手机，跑上来拿，上了taxi发现没带手套和帽子，日，我忍~不过到了72街站了一刻钟，靠，实在冻得不行了，给JT打电话，帮我买一副吧。等到7点20，还不来车，被通知cancel了，大早上被日还是第一次。怒了，一定要去，和田哥冲到PA买了8:30的汽车票，12点到，一天的行程顿时缩减了一半。长话短说，回家拿了帽子和手套，12点到了Hunter和自驾帮成功会师。发现回程的车是三点半，滑雪时间又缩短了快一半。田哥决定断臂一下，第二天再回去，好！日了汉堡后，向大雪山进发，买了两天的票。试了初初级道、初级道以后，找到了haitao，上了山顶，缆车上冻得一砣，喝了一大口带的rum，来吧，飚。一路下山，没刹住摔倒雪道旁边的坑里，坐起来看见Haitao滑过来，叫之，不吊，靠，爬出来穿上ski一路追到山下，他正在纳闷我去哪了。再上，不小心滑倒了高级道上，上肯定是上不去了，慢慢悠悠、颤颤巍巍下吧~~有惊无险，摔倒了很快爬起来，没被人看到，炫耀了一把，感觉浑身腿疼、酸。出来后，和田哥找了个有游泳池、没有早餐的连锁酒店，在HT和JT（导航员）的百折不挠下，终于找到了那家20Miles以外的酒店，check in之后，发现下车时拿了两只不同的左手手套。虽然房间里很冷，一夜无事。第二天发现ipod竟然不在大衣兜里，肯定是丢在昨天掉进去的坑里了，说了本周不宜出行的了。第二天，用自己初学时的非人性魔鬼训练法带着田哥基本搞定了中级道，然后去高级道上找挫折。高级道果然很高，看着就慎得慌，滑了不到五米，摔倒，掉了一个雪板，自己一直滚到山下，转过身来，正好接住那个掉下来的板，穿上板子，前面又一个高级道，我日~尝试克服心理障碍，滑了两次，第三次完全崩溃，腿疼不行，根本没办法铲雪转弯，迎着头皮一直摔下去，现在屁股还很疼，想起ReeJ的护臀，下了山觉得站着都累。四个人一起下缆车的时候，挤得滑不动，缆车转过来把大衣给刮破了……啥都不说了。不过田哥很happy地说是来了米国以后最爽的一个周末，然后补上一句除了和女朋友在一起的时间以外。想想好久没滑雪了，其实每次经历都很特殊，玩得也很开心，感觉技巧也在提高，哈~

anyway，终于写了一篇又臭又长的流水账，Officially结束了这个开心又颓废的周末。还有几件事：

周日早晨看一个鼻孔朝天的人临死前讲一个人（哲学家）应该过什么样的生活，睡着

回家后发现ipod滑雪前被存放在田哥的包里，………………

想到他进入自己的心灵洞穴，看到一只企鹅，挺着肚子滑下冰道~ 依旧不懂

wondering下一个周日是不是应该呆在被窝里，而skip嘉年华呢？呵呵，kidding~